Mother - Rewind 7 or 8 Years

I became a mother just under seven years ago. As I am now 33 years old, I have been a mother for slightly over 1/5 of my life. Numbers, fractions and percentages are usually too abstract to comprehend an issue, so maybe I'll rewind 7 years. Or better 8, as I think any mother would agree that pregnancy is already a part of motherhood. 8 years ago I spent Mother's day dealing with a family emergency. I had been hoping to get pregnant for nearly a year by then. For some reason, it was for the best at the time that I could focus on helping my family then. I was nonetheless devastated on Mother's day when I realized that it was again that time of the month when I again - as month after month before - realized I had again not become pregnant. I was in a phase where I did not  have time or energy to think about myself, but on that day I did. I was upset, angry, and it was a day that helped me refocus on myself and my own needs, wishes and dreams. Having children was something I wanted so much. Three wonderful children later, I am so grateful that this wish has been granted to me. I am so grateful for the here and now.