A wonderful friend of mine with two small children just decided to extend her leave from work for a while longer. She did a short stint back at the office, which worked well, but as she's moving continents twice with the family in the next months, staying at home makes complete sense to me. And although she's an absolutely wonderful mom, she manages what I never did at home: remain really active in life. I somehow felt trapped, restricted, bored. I felt that there was too much routine, too many housewifely burdens, far too little contact with adults, and worst of all: too much time to focus on random, tiny issues.
Who knows how long I will last in this job, or how long my family situation will allow me to. But I do know one thing: I need to keep working somewhere. Or on something. I am not good at being my own boss, having too much time on my hands, and being creative about using my freedom. I can only create quality time - with myself, my kids, people, when it's limited.
Es ist besser so, wie es jetzt ist. But just because this applies to me, it doesn't mean it is the right thing for other people. I wish I could be more content with whatever comes. I still have a long way to go, but thankfully have wonderful friends who teach me so much.
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